A Happy Imperfect Human

When I read a daily inspiration book on Wednesday, I was catched by an interesting quote said, “How happy I am to see myself imperfect and to be in need of God’s mercy.” apparently transcribed from one of St Therese of Lisieux’s sayings.

This quote remind me to a similar story I’ve read few years ago from a book titled “The Song of the Bird” originally written by Anthony de Mello, a Jesuit pastor. The story was very short, telling about a Jews mystic named Baal Shem, prayed to God in an unusual way, “Dear Lord, You need me as I need You. If You aren’t exist, for whom will I pray? If I don’t exist, who will pray?”. The story writer then ended the passage by saying, “It’s a joy to have a thought that if I am not sinned, God will have no chance to absolve.”

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An Allowable Pain

A few days ago when I took a speaking test, I had a toothache. Firstly I thought it’s caused by a hormonal change during my period, as what usually happen. However, this time the hurt still until few days later. Being curious about the ache, I looked inside my mouth using a torch application in my cellphone. I was surprised to find that my molar tooth was growing. Then suddenly I realized that some pains are allowed to happen for good reasons-which we didn’t see often.

If my gum didn’t swell, if I didn’t experience the pain..my teeth wouldn’t grow completely. After knowing this, I became mode tolerable of the pain because I knew that this pain happened for a good reason.

Today’s Gospel is about Thomas’s unbelief. Although Jesus finally did let him touch His wounds, Jesus said “Have you come to believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.” (John 20:29)

So often in our life we lose our faith that God is good. We complained about our pain, our afflictions, our sickness, and many other things. We keep complaining until we lose our joy. We might have been praying for a long time but God seems to keep silent. Apparently God let those pain happen to us, God wanted us to suffer those pain.

I haven’t born any children, but I know that a mother who are giving birth of her child do feel hurt. The long lasting contractions often be a nightmare for conceiving mother. However, it’s amazing that mothers bear those pain to give birth their children safely. A mother doesn’t refuse the pain even though she know it’ll make her suffer for a moment.

It’s an example of an allowable pain. We often forget that God has a plan for our lives and that God’s plan is always the best one. Maybe God let us to experience some hard feelings, serious illness, and broken relationships just to make us grow better. There will be no growth without sacrifices.

My dear friends, when painful things happen to us, pray that God may show us the higher purpose of those pains. However, whether we can see God’s beautiful plan through our pain or not, just believe that everything happens for a good reason, for blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.

Have a great week! God bless you.😊


Children of God

A Child’s Prayer

Heavenly Father are You really there?

And do You hear and answer ev’ry child’s prayer?

Some say that heaven is far away,

But I feel it close around me as I pray.

Heavenly Father, I remember now

Something that Jesus told disciples long ago:

“Suffer the children to come to Me.”

Father, in prayer I’m coming now to Thee.

Pray, He is there;

Speak, He is list’ning.

You are His child;

His love now surrounds you.

He hears your prayer;

He loves the children.

Of such is the kingdom, the kingdom of heav’n


Today when I firstly heard this song in Sunday mass, I was almost cried (but I held it since there’s my mom there). After hearing this song repeatedly, I hardly cried. I didn’t understand why did I cry, but then I realized that it’s because the song doesn’t only present little children’s prayer, but also my prayer.

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God is Kind

Who is there like you, the God who removes guilt and pardons sin for the remnant of his inheritance; who does not persist in anger forever, but delights rather in clemency, and will again have compassion on us, treading underfoot our guilt? You will cast into the depths of the sea all our sins; (Micah 7:18-19)

But now we must celebrate and rejoice, because your brother was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.(Luke 15:32)

Have you ever feel so lost that you are afraid of coming back to God?

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Therefore whatever they tell you to observe, that observe and do, but do not do according to their works; for they say, and do not do. (Matthew 23:3)

And whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted. (Matthew 23:12)

“Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean;
Put away the evil of your doings from before My eyes.
Cease to do evil,
Learn to do good;
Seek justice,
Rebuke the oppressor;
Defend the fatherless,
Plead for the widow.” (Isaiah 1:16-17)

Have you ever rebuked someone?

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Be Merciful

To the Lord our God belong mercy and forgiveness, though we have rebelled against Him. We have not obeyed the voice of the Lord our God, to walk in His laws, which He set before us by His servants the prophets. (Daniel 9:9-10)

Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful...For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.” (Luke 6:36,38)

Is it because these days are Lent period so the readings are mostly talked about forgiveness and repentance? No matter what, it’s always exhiliriating to discuss this topic.

I have been written many times in my reflections that I wasn’t a merciful woman. Now let me tell you a recent experience I had these weeks.

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This is My Beloved Son

And He said, “Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son, from Me.” (Genesis 22:12)

He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things? (Roman 8:32)

And a cloud came and overshadowed them; and a voice came out of the cloud, saying, “This is My beloved Son. Hear Him!” (Matthew 9:7)

Do you have a son? How is your feeling if you have to sacrifice your beloved son for others deeds?

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