New Year Resolution

In the last day of 2018, I attended a mass at church nearby. It was my first year-end mass I had for this >20 years being a Catholic. I was very grateful attend that mass, not because I got free snacks, but I experienced a spiritual event more than what I feel during ordinary mass.

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Humility is The Key

 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you” (Matthew 7:7)

Those verse may be is the ‘most loved’ first from the Bible. A lot of Christian (including me) thought that this verse claimed that everything we want, we will get it. But in some many occasions, we don’t get what we want. This may create a crisis on a Christian’s faith. Does the scripture lies?  Continue reading


A Girl and the Diamond

Well, let me share this little reflection I’ve had when I was in a deep sorrow, or let say…a severe melancholic mode ^_^;

If you are a woman and you haven’t found your ‘true love’, I hope this reflection will help you to set your mind during your waiting. If you are a married woman, maybe you can comment and correct me if you find anything ‘not so true’ from this writing. However, if you are a man–whether you have been married or not–just read this reflection to give a little enlightenment and gratitude for a woman’s presence in the world. Then, let the story begin.

Somehow I imagined a girl is like a diamond–but not the perfect one. This diamond has some dirt outside, blocking the sparkle and might reduce its beauty, yet it still shining, presenting its beauty for everyone sees it.

A man owned these diamonds. He has a lot of this ‘imperfect’ diamonds and He wants to bequeath His precious jewelries for anyone who deserves it. So He will choose the best person whom He’s known worthy of His treasures.

A boy saw a diamond and he interested on it. He went to the man in a rush and ask the diamond. The owner stopped the boy and asked him, “Do you know how much is the value of this diamond?” The boy was startled. He didn’t expect that question. In fact, he didn’t know the value of that diamond. He just found it very beautiful that he wants to have it. But the owner didn’t give it to him. “I won’t give this diamond to someone who doesn’t even know how precious it is.” said the owner. Then the boy went away. Continue reading


A Happy Imperfect Human

When I read a daily inspiration book on Wednesday, I was catched by an interesting quote said, “How happy I am to see myself imperfect and to be in need of God’s mercy.” apparently transcribed from one of St Therese of Lisieux’s sayings.

This quote remind me to a similar story I’ve read few years ago from a book titled “The Song of the Bird” originally written by Anthony de Mello, a Jesuit pastor. The story was very short, telling about a Jews mystic named Baal Shem, prayed to God in an unusual way, “Dear Lord, You need me as I need You. If You aren’t exist, for whom will I pray? If I don’t exist, who will pray?”. The story writer then ended the passage by saying, “It’s a joy to have a thought that if I am not sinned, God will have no chance to absolve.”

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An Allowable Pain

A few days ago when I took a speaking test, I had a toothache. Firstly I thought it’s caused by a hormonal change during my period, as what usually happen. However, this time the hurt still until few days later. Being curious about the ache, I looked inside my mouth using a torch application in my cellphone. I was surprised to find that my molar tooth was growing. Then suddenly I realized that some pains are allowed to happen for good reasons-which we didn’t see often.

If my gum didn’t swell, if I didn’t experience the pain..my teeth wouldn’t grow completely. After knowing this, I became mode tolerable of the pain because I knew that this pain happened for a good reason.

Today’s Gospel is about Thomas’s unbelief. Although Jesus finally did let him touch His wounds, Jesus said “Have you come to believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.” (John 20:29)

So often in our life we lose our faith that God is good. We complained about our pain, our afflictions, our sickness, and many other things. We keep complaining until we lose our joy. We might have been praying for a long time but God seems to keep silent. Apparently God let those pain happen to us, God wanted us to suffer those pain.

I haven’t born any children, but I know that a mother who are giving birth of her child do feel hurt. The long lasting contractions often be a nightmare for conceiving mother. However, it’s amazing that mothers bear those pain to give birth their children safely. A mother doesn’t refuse the pain even though she know it’ll make her suffer for a moment.

It’s an example of an allowable pain. We often forget that God has a plan for our lives and that God’s plan is always the best one. Maybe God let us to experience some hard feelings, serious illness, and broken relationships just to make us grow better. There will be no growth without sacrifices.

My dear friends, when painful things happen to us, pray that God may show us the higher purpose of those pains. However, whether we can see God’s beautiful plan through our pain or not, just believe that everything happens for a good reason, for blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.

Have a great week! God bless you.😊


Children of God

A Child’s Prayer

Heavenly Father are You really there?

And do You hear and answer ev’ry child’s prayer?

Some say that heaven is far away,

But I feel it close around me as I pray.

Heavenly Father, I remember now

Something that Jesus told disciples long ago:

“Suffer the children to come to Me.”

Father, in prayer I’m coming now to Thee.

Pray, He is there;

Speak, He is list’ning.

You are His child;

His love now surrounds you.

He hears your prayer;

He loves the children.

Of such is the kingdom, the kingdom of heav’n


Today when I firstly heard this song in Sunday mass, I was almost cried (but I held it since there’s my mom there). After hearing this song repeatedly, I hardly cried. I didn’t understand why did I cry, but then I realized that it’s because the song doesn’t only present little children’s prayer, but also my prayer.

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God is Kind

Who is there like you, the God who removes guilt and pardons sin for the remnant of his inheritance; who does not persist in anger forever, but delights rather in clemency, and will again have compassion on us, treading underfoot our guilt? You will cast into the depths of the sea all our sins; (Micah 7:18-19)

But now we must celebrate and rejoice, because your brother was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.(Luke 15:32)

Have you ever feel so lost that you are afraid of coming back to God?

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